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Rest In Pieces
bitched @ 1:46 a.m. on Thursday, Nov. 06, 2003 Okay so today I think I finally realized that I can�t pretend to be perfectly fine without fucking paxil. I am DYING here without it, I fucking hate how you can�t just STOP you have to gradually wean off that shit. But alas I do not posses enough will power to be able to do it on my own. For example, I�m completely disoriented and I�m fucking light headed as a mutha fucka. But oh well, life goes onnnn! And right now I should be working my ass off but I�m not because I feel like a complete and utter shit and I�m mad that Mary just dumped all this shit on me with only ONE explanation session. She hella dropped the bomb on me without warning, and she expects me to get this shit. Ummm� No. It�s like telling a baby that he has to tell you what the quadratic formula is and why it�s so commonly used in geometry. If he can�t do it what the HELL makes you think I can remember how to log in all these documents, insert the daily data from the mail and remember all the fucking cover sheets, county documentation and decision letters. Psh. Nothing interesting happen today except that I almost cried when Mary gave me a full runthro of what I�m expected to be doing uo here in this new position. I�m in way over my head, she told me and I QUOTE: �You have to live, drink, eat and sleep TARs from now on�� needless to say I went back to my cube and almost let the waterworks run free because I�m on edge today. WAYYY on edge. I have all this damn shit on my fucking shoulders, schools starting back up and I have NO clue how I will be able to fit it in with work. Work is hella demanding right now and despite what everyone says about school first they are a bunch of sad ass liars because they hella frown when I say I have school. But whatever, freak them and all their lies and mistrust. Believe it or not its�s wayyy past the time I started to write this at work. I was at the end of my day when I started this and now it�s 1:28am and I�m finishing it. The second I got home I passed out and just recently woke up. Yea, I feel like shit and I don�t know what to do about it so I guess I�ll just sit here and stare at the screen, looking at sexy ass pictures of Joel Madden. Peace out, for now. You Know You Love Me, JBehrsGurl << | >> MOVED - 09-08-04 test - 08-18-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Whoa Momma! - 05-24-04 Even OLDER... |