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What Happen To Me?
bitched @ 1:16 a.m. on 01-21-04 Well hello �dere party people! Uh, I mean diary. Yea� Yea that�s what I meant� Well anywhoot, FINALLY did it. I got a cell phone. It cost me an arm and a leg and it will cost me an arm and a leg for the monthly bills but oh well! It has a camera and shittle. It�s the Verizon LG VX6000 I know I posted a picture of it before. Yea, and the camera makes me look fat so I wont take any pictures of myself! I didn�t go to school today because I suck, and because I was in the most horrible mood when I got back from taking my grandpa to the doctors. I mean I was like, in tears. I don�t know why. And I have to go to bed early and this is not early. Why do I do this to myself? I�m hella tired but I just HAVE to write this update and then write in my orig. I have no clue what the hell I�m gonna do tomorrow about school. I don�t even know how much money I have left from this damn phone (which is tight as hell but I don�t know how to work it properly so therefore I hate it) and then I have no clue if I�m even still enrolled in the class. I really need to take a deep breath and quit acting like such a dumbass. I don�t know what else to say except for my tremendous insecurities about school. I have no idea why I�m getting like this, I fucking HATE college, I hate it because there are SO MANY people there and I fucking hate people!!! I really do, I mean nothing against them its just that I get really, really irritable when I�m in a large crowd. I also freak out, my mind goes into overdrive and makes me think everyone is looking at me and thinking about how fat I am. See? Psycho me. I only feel slightly normal when I�m with someone in a crowd, or I know I look at least decent. This fat stage is really fucking me up. I say I�ll diet but it doesn�t work fast enough so I give up because I�m a quitter. I suck, blah blah blah. I wish I could clone myself and then then kick my ass. I wonder if that could ever happen. Another thing is that I can�t fucking believe that someone has an online diary that hated the online diary deal. And I hate that I can�t say what I want because I don�t want to start shit, so I�ll just shut up� I�m really tired and I�m completely rambling so I�m just gonna call it a night and write again on my lunch hour at work tomorrow. Peace out. You Know You Love Me, ~JBehrsGurl P.S. One Tree Hill was SOOOO good tonight. I love that show!!! Lucas/Brooke!!! I hope they stay together, and I�m so happy they go out in real life. Okay nite. << | >> MOVED - 09-08-04 test - 08-18-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Whoa Momma! - 05-24-04 Even OLDER... |