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College SUCKS!
bitched @ 12:05 p.m. on 01-21-04 I am so pissed right now. I was dropped from that damn Math class and now I have to go through all this shit to get back in. What�s got my thong up my ass though is that this would never have happen if I had A.) paid for my class, or B.) WENT TO CLASS YESTERDAY!!! Gah! Now I have no clue what the hell I�m doing and I don�t want to keep begging Tony about it because his dumb ass doesn�t have a clue because his mom did it all for him. Why can�t my mom be like that? Why can�t she be SMART?! Why does she act to fucking STUPID?! I know that I�m 19 years old and I should be �independent� and all that junk but I�M NOT!!! Hold my hand, guide me across the damn street!!! I am only independent when I know what I�m doing. When I went to S.C. all by my lonesome everyone saw that as a big independent deal. I don�t. Big whoop I traveled across the USA on my own and took 3 different planes to and from. I really don�t see the significance in that. I hate college. I really do, its so freaking confusing. I feel like such a baby when it comes to college. Everyone walks around all superior and crap and know where they�re going in life and in direction. I on the other hand am struggling just to stay sane. I don�t know what I want to be and I don�t know how to get there when I do. I hate this, I hate being confused, it makes me so pissed that I always just give up. When I don�t understand something I�m not like normal people, I don�t go, �Oh. Okay, who could I ask for help?� No. I�m the one screaming, �&^%$ @#%$!!! %$#@ This!� and I storm off. Now does that seem like a normal thing to do? No. No it does not. Gosh, I really realllllly hope Tony helps me out. Cuz he can be such an ass sometimes. I mean, I know he�ll help me but he�ll pout the whole time and I�ll get pissed and then blow up at him. I can see the furture when it comes to certain things, this being one of them. Anyways, I�ve ranted and raved so I�m going to lunch now, hopefully I�ll think more clearly on a full stomach. Peace. You Know You Love Me, (Even tho I whine�) ~JBehrsGurl << | >> MOVED - 09-08-04 test - 08-18-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Whoa Momma! - 05-24-04 Even OLDER... |