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Damn You Anita Blake!
bitched @ 12:08 a.m. on 01-07-04 So I stayed home, didn�t go anywhere �surprise! Surprise! Psh, yea, big ass surprise there. Some weird ass junk happened today. Apparently my pappy�s feeling were hurt when he got out of his small (not life-threatening) operation for his toe. He came out and no one was there for him. Usually we�re all there, but the operation was late in the day and everyone went home. My tia had a zero patience level and my mom, well she has a zero tolerance level. But when my grandpa called my mom to see what was up she said he sounded so sad and shaky, like he was crying. She zoomed down there to see him. Now here�s where things get screwy. My mom blames ME!!!! What the hell did I do?! I said I didn�t want to go when she asked me earlier. This was before the operation, before anything happened. I just don�t like hospitals. Especially the hospital that BOTH my grandmothers passed away in. I hate it there; I hate the memories I get when I set foot in that damn place. It�s a tomb of death. You can feel it tight against your chest; it�s like a hundred pound barbell laying flat against your breast. You can breathe, there�s no dramatic effect, it�s just all the stuff going on inside my head that freaks me out. Oh look, there�s where me and nina and chavo used to sit and eat peanut M&M�S�. Oh look there�s where me and my dad and my brother sat for hours while my aunt went to go see ama. Look, over there. There�s where me and chavo got into a huge fist fight and the guard had to come over and me and my brother ran for dear life. I�m not trying to be funny, but that�s what I do when things get to be too much for me to handle. I laugh. Even when�s its SO not funny. I laugh. I think about funny things, or I remember something funny that happen here or there. Things can remind me of other things. I can look at an empty can of D., Pepper and say oh remember the time when� Nobody ever remembers except for me, cuz I was the only one paying attention, or the only one who could keep it in mind to say later. Now that I�ve seriously depressed myself I better either change the subject or do the whoa was me shit. So anyways� I cheated and looked in the back of my last Anita book. I am SO flubbin stupid. WHY did I do that?! I found out the end and now I�m pissed because I SO DO NOT LIKE THE ENDING! Fuck a dime dude, Anita is a slut and a half. Regardless of the situation she gave in way too easily. Oh Jean-Claude, you�re French words are so sexy! neh neh neh. Or how about Mica, Oh Mica come fuck me up against the shower wall! I only have two other guys I�m in love with and they�re willing to share me� But hey! What�s one more! man and don�t even get me started when she channels Raina. Oh I can heal you my little wereleopards, I just have to have sex with you while I do it but �hey! No penetration or I�ll put a bullet in your head. She can literally fuck you and then blow you away in the same minute than not feel a thing. It�s not that, that pisses me off. It�s the fact that�s he does all this shit and then she�s all, I�m not a monster, YOU are! to everyone else. Umm� hellloooo? Earth to the Zombie Queen. I still love the bitch but she pushed me too far when she lost Richard. RICHARD!!!! RIIIICHAARRRRRD!!! Please save my ULFRIC!!! Save my Richard Zeeman! Hahaha! Man why did Laurell K. Hamilton have to make his ass so fine and strong and then WHAM! Suicidal crybaby. WHYYYYY Laurell WHYYYY??? Why must you torment me so?! Okay, I�m okay now. Sorry for the relapse. Sorry, all is okay� I think. I�m gonna make another petition to save Richard because the one that was going on got all screwed cuz it ran out of space. We need more supporters!!! I don�t care if you don�t read the books do it for meeee!!! Alright, I�m done being retarded. Peace out poops. You Know You Love Me, ~JBehrsGurl P.S. I forgot to show u what I want!!! Man My bday is coming up! In April, but still! I best start savin my mola!!! << | >> MOVED - 09-08-04 test - 08-18-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Whoa Momma! - 05-24-04 Even OLDER... |