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The Good, The bad... And the FUGLY
bitched @ 11:57 a.m. on 2003-10-30 Man, yesterday was� Interesting. I think I might be getting ready to surf my crimson wave again, gah. Sometimes I just hate being a girl. I retook my badge picture today and not only am I fat but I'm fugly. I look weird in the pic -ganted the picture looks way better than my last picture I'm still disapointed. Anyways, Hella shit went down yesterday, good and bad and worse. I�ll start with the bad so I leave with the good� Work is way over zealous! All these peeps up here act like they�re the shizzle and I�m caught up all in the game man. I was talking to Lynnette and Charlene and it was brought to my attention that I miss them more than I thought I did. It was sentimental! Argh. Well when I get home I�m annoyed cuz my grandpa was the one who took me home and insisted on bothering me when he knows I like to ride home in silence, even my mom knows that. I�m frustrated and shit. But that wasn�t the thing that bothered me, what bothered me was that my back was hurting hella bad!!! I dunno what�s going on but my back was hurting so bad yesterday that I cried �to myself. Psh, like I was gonna cry in front of someone who do look like? Season two Max? Psh. I get home, take a nap, and my back starts to feel better. I wake up wait for the Kings game to come on and watch Sanford & Son with pappy. Then I decide to go online while I wait for the Kings game to start. I get online and chat for a while with my peeps when all of the sudden� Disaster attacks� For some reason Desiree takes it upon herself to call me a rude bitch. Needless to say she�s on my shit list and if she�s reading this right now� GOOD. It�s completely not fair what she said to me yesterday. She read my diary entry about how my grandpa gets on my nerves and she went off, well let me just say that it�s an entirely different story when you live with someone rather than seeing them every once in a fat ass great while. It�s like telling god what heaven looks like. You�ve NEVER been there and you think YOU can tell HIM what it�s like up there??? I think not. So don�t get all up in MY face and call me rude. Call me a bitch cuz I know I am but rude I am not �unless I�m in a bad mood. Which I am now, so I�ll show you a rude bitch� I have every right to be upset, I even asked my pappy if I�m rude, he said I can be but he said he loves me and I�m NOT mean to him. He says he bothers me cuz he loves me. LOVES ME. Gosh I get so mad every time I think about what Desiree said. She had NO RIGHT! Now I�m all mad again. Gah. Anyways I called Jessica right after that because that was just the last straw of the day for me. I�m so glad I called her cuz she has a way of making all my shit go away without even aying a word. Just knowing that she�s there makes me feel a whole lot better. It would have been a perfect phone call had my grandpa not freaked out about the distance. He kept coming outside and tapping his watch and telling me to get off. Which set me off, but then I realized that if I went of I�d be a �rude bitch� so I shut up and asked him if I was in fact� a rude bitch (can you tell I�m very offended by this?) and then I started bawling but he didn�t see me do that part cuz I�m pretty good and hiding that shizzle. He said I�m rude and that�s what made me cry but then a half hour later he came out in the living room and gave me a hug and said he loved me and that I�m not mean, and stuff. I told him Desiree said I was and he was all shocked. Hmmph. Talking to Jessica made me miss her a whole lot more than I already do. It was a tease. I also miss Kreston and Suzanne, but I miss Kreston a lot cuz I miss him snuggling with me, LOL!!! He�s so cute when does that, cuz he just molds into you like he fits there. OHHH!!!! Holy wow, I found his picture on hot or not and I gave the link to Lindz to show Les and guess what� LES THINKS HE�S FUCKABLE!!! So me and Lindz started making up this elaborate fake wedding and we were laughing our asses off, I think I almost chocked like 5 times from it all. Also I got to talk to Lindz on the phone last night, she�s SO cute! I know the word cute can be used lightly but I�m sorry... Cute describes everything about her, she�s beautiful and she�s talented and she�s just so cute! Her personality is infectious and she makes me laugh, her voice is very cute also, not too girly and NOT manly! (lol Lindz!) I always think I sound like a man but when I hear my voice on a machine of in a voicemail I sound like a pip squeak and I HATE that! I love Lindz, and Erin, and Lynner, and.. hahaha! I�m full of love today, I love when I�m happy like that. It makes me feel� happy. I�m a basket case, OH HOLY HECK! I completely for got to mention that the KINGS WON YESTERDAY!!!! Man my man Bibby looked HOOOOOOT! And he was on fire last night baby! His game has improved overtime! Labron James was playing hella good last night too, the Cavaliers now have leverage! All thanks to that High School Graduate! It was either the hype or the camera crew or what but I seriously think Labron was that that team. He carried it all the way and almost beat us but we�re too damn good to be beat so we kicked his baby ass. He just turned 19 by the way, gosh that must be so awesome to be the youngest on the team possibly in the NBA! Man is Bibby hotter than hot� Well I gotta go cuz I�m hungry and I�m trying to convince Tony to sneak out and take a break with me. Peace out! 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