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bitched @ 12:48 p.m. on 2003-10-29 It shouldn�t be so bad� So why do I feel so sad? I don�t understand what I�m feeling. Am I sad? Mad? Glad? I have no clue cuz I feel nothing but overwhelmed. I have so much shit going on in my life right now and it�s driving me insane, so bad to the point that every time I think about everything I have to do I get sick to my stomach and my head feels like it�s going to explode. I feel responsible for taking care of my father, I feel like I have to pick him up, wipe his ass, get him to find a job, help him find somewhere to live, make him get insurance, make him file for unemployment. He�s not smart enough to do these things on his own. And it sucks. Plus I have to deal with pappy. I love pappy but gah dammit he�s driving me insane! Plus he already made it pretty damn clear that he doesn�t want my dad moving in with us. It�s COMPLETELY understandable and it�s also very acceptable but the fact that he denied it without me even asking was� I dunno. It hurt. Like a blow to the gut, and I�m pissed at him but he doesn�t know because I don�t show it. I don�t know what it is about him that makes me want to gouge my eyes out, or stick a needle in my eye or pull out all my hair� He just DOES. He�s so fucking annoying!!!! I�ll be quietly sitting on the couch, minding my own damn business watching TV and out he comes to either a.) bother the shit out of me during a GOOD part, b.) block the TV while he talks about something horrendously STUPID! Or c.) Just plain make NOISE that�s so distracting he might as well turn the damn TV off to begin with. I have no clue if he really means to do these thing sbut the fact is that he does and it drives me mad. He knows he�s getting on my nerves too cuz he always goes, �Leeennnnaaaaa!!!! My little baby!!! Leeennnaaaa!!!� ME: (well not ME but this is what my face would look like if you saw me�) But anywho lets talk about better things� Yesterday I actually had a genuinely good time with Marci. We went to the Double Tree hotel so she could apply for this job position for ATT&T Wireless Network and there were HELLA people there btw! But anyways, that hotel is the bomb diggity, its hella fuckin big and you would NOT expect it to look as nice as it did considering its called, Double Tree. Seriously. The only thing I don�t like is the scary ass long horror movie hallways, it�s literally like The Shining. No friggin joke man, it�s freaky and maze-like like that! Man I�m so tired, I went to bed hella early yesterday too, I don�t get it. Why am I still so tired? Oh well. Be back laterz! Peace out cuz� You Know You Love Me, ~JBehrsGurl << | >> MOVED - 09-08-04 test - 08-18-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Whoa Momma! - 05-24-04 Even OLDER... |