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Ignore Me
bitched @ 12:11 a.m. on 2003-01-03 Before I hit the hey I gotta say... Today sucked. I'm freaking myself out and I need to quit that! I feel left out. I remember when I was little and I would feel like that. Marci said that Janelle wants to start hanging out again. I feel threatened cuz well, I know Marci will be all "Janelle, Janelle, Janelle." Blah! Then I'll be left alone. As usual. Then my sis is being distant. I feel horrible that I lied to her on new years, I told her I was fine but I was crying. Big baby me was balling her eyes out for no good reason. I didn't tell anyone but you diary. Don't you feel fuckin speacial? You should. Okay what else... Um... I'm about to get mad crazy drunk this weekend. Cuz I'm sick of my life. Its boring, its predictable and its... Oh yea, its BORING. One can only spend so much time being me without going insane. I retire from being me and I'm the NEW me. I'm the me who's gonna go to parties again. Oh screw the NEW me I want the original me back. The one who used to get laced and spark it up and have fun. Fuck the me now. Fuck it all. I'm hella in a bad mood ignore me. You always do...
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