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bitched @ 4:39 p.m. on 11-19-03 Can�t we all just get along? Martin once said this and it forever stuck around. This entire entry will be devoted to what�s been going on, than I will try my hardest to never mention it again. It also makes no sense because I just let it all out at once. If you want to leave a comment, do so at your own risk because I don't want people fighting again. As much as it amuses me. Hella shit�s gone down, and I�m getting so pissed it�s not even funny. Screw everything you know? I hate how immature people can be, excuse me for expressing my honest opinion, okay I should not have used names but oh the FUCK well! GET OVER IT! Do you not have a life to where you have to dwell on such a small concept? Get over IT and yourself. Because I know you are reading this right now and I don�t like to write for the benefit of others, I do so for myself. Now get on with your life as I will get on with mine, we had good times and bad. Let�s not dwell on the bad times, but think about the good ones. No matter what you say I WAS good friend, I NEVER talked shit about you to other people yes, to myself I did, but never around �like you did to me. I NEVER made you feel like I was better than you, I NEVER made you pay me for idiotic things, I NEVER was as selfish� I NEVER made you feel like shit, if I did, I apologize. I can�t take back things I have done but I can ask for forgiveness, I don�t really care if you think I�m full of shit, because frankly� I�m sick of trying to please you. �Oh, and by the way? Trying to cover your status is worthless because your IP address pops up anyways. Give it a rest man. I�m not done just yet, I�m breaking free and letting loose. To this person who shall remain anonymous, I just have to say something. Your friendship skills need major tweaking, I remained there because I thought eventually you would see just how bad your actions were. I�m not trying to attack you, I�m just being honest. Unlike some I don�t lie out my ass so loudly as others. I would never tell someone that you did something when I knew that I did it, placing the blame on others is a sign of fear, of weakness to own up to your own doings. Putting the other down is a sign of insecurity, hating what you have so good is a sign of ungratefulness, and bragging about daddy�s money is a sign of adolescence. You will learn a lot in life with someone always there to help you through, you have your mother who is wise, your dad who is very educated, you have your brothers love and loyalty. You have your cousins, NEVER in a million years would I EVER come between you and blood. You have much loyalty in your family, I envy that, I obviously do not have it. Your selfish acts of behavior will soon start to falter I hope. For your own good, because I guarantee you this: if you continue to treat your friends the way you have treated me than sooner or later� You will not have friends. But that won�t happen, because you are a very social person, you have many contacts, and yet you talk so much shit your mouth could be mistaken as a sewer. I hope that after this you begin to realize that you�re well on your way to writing a check your ass cannot cash. We all know I have right? It�s not very pretty. And for the other person who did not want to be involved and yet IS� I�m starting to see how out of hand this is getting, and yet it�s gone on so far that I can�t stop it now. As I said before I can�t change what I�ve done but I can ask for forgiveness. Maybe someday you will come to realize that you can too. I know I sound all philosophical and preacher-ish, but if you do not like it, than please feel free to click that X in the right hand corner. I care for you, I love you, you�re my family. Even through all the crap that�s been going on these past couple months I still love you. Blood is thicker than water, at least in my book. Yes, I was selfish, I told you to pick a side. Yea, she didn�t. Wow. What a true blue friend. She didn�t ask you to choose sides. And for all those countless times you told me that she was a bad friend, that I should move on (as SO many others have told me) I didn�t listen, so yea. Also I�ve concluded that all the shit�s she�s said about you and your mother and your brothers for that matter �oh hell yea I�m being the tattle, you�re gonna wish you had listened to me. Have fun with your life, because we all know where you�re headed if you keep up this I�m miss shit attitude. Go cry to your best friend, or better yet your new cousin because you can kiss my mother fucking ass. I just read your new entry. You know what? FUCK. YOU. And to the one who started this all, you were right, the joke IS on me. Remember the time I wanted to go to the movies with a certain someone who lived down the street? Remember when a certain someone found out through the grapevine and FLIPPED the fuck out? Causing that certain someone down the street to feel very intimidated and to cancel movie plans? Can you also remember the COUNTLESS times that you would feel embarrassed so you felt the need to embarrass me too? Or to just blab out a random private secret that I had confided in you? You know you said I was the most un-social person you knew? Did you ever think that it was because of you? Yea. You. Yep. I never wanted to go places with you, you would hang your face, and I would feel the need to do something �anything to make you have a good time. Well thank god that is over. I still remember the night I ran away and needed a friend, my best best, who ws you. And you let someone tell you to hang up. I don�t care if they kept pressuring you. I would have done anything to help you out. But no, you hung up on me, saying that the person told you not to get involved. I will never forget that. Ever. I�m not going to play the saint here. Sometimes I was so jealous of your wealth that I resented you. That I would take my jealous bad moods out on you. Sometimes I would just sit and think about all the shit that�s happen and get so angry I wished god would teach you a lesson. I�ve lied to you about certain things, right now I can�t remember them but when I do I�ll admit it. I wont say I�m the �good� friend. But I am saying that I was always there for you. You name ONE time that I wasn�t. I will always appreciate the night I was scared about my dad and you came along with me to his house, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for that. I�m done because I don�t care anymore, after writing all that shit down I fucking feel free, pass the blunt mother fucker let�s get high. I now know the TRUE meaning of a toxic friend. And thanks to her I lost a blood line, thanks. I�m the dramatic one. I�m the Hispanic causing panic. But you just remember who always had your fucking back, don�t you ever say I didn�t. Name one time �that wasn�t stupid like �you didn�t steal this for me.� Gosh I was totally fine with this shit until I read someone�s latest entry. Maybe someday when she�s sitting there thinking about the true meaning of a toxic friend, she�ll wish I was there. Because as of right now? I won�t be. And you can �arato� that right on upi your ass. Hope you don�t get pregnant from it, oh and for your new best friend, have fun living your sexual fantasies through a 16 year old because we all know you�ll never get any with that attitude you�re carrying. Have fun with your 50 year old lesbian friend/lover? No. You�re not a lesbian. I�m not calling you one. But my anger is so great I don�t know what I mean anymore. Angry? Hurt? Sad? Enraged? Wanna kick my ass? Just you? Or your family? Or your cousins? But just you? I�d like to see you do ONE thing by your own damn self for once. That goes for everyone in question. Not just one person in particular. I'm not trying to start a war, a fight, whatever. But I'm betting my money that the second you read this youre first thoughts will be of getting someone else to do what you want. Not you. I write this for entertainment now, do I even mean what I say? Maybe we all need to change, to ask god for forgiveness, but at least I�m the first one to admit it. You Know You Love� 2 HATE Me, Peace out Bitch << | >> MOVED - 09-08-04 test - 08-18-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Whoa Momma! - 05-24-04 Even OLDER... |