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My Dad's An ASS
bitched @ 12:32 a.m. on 12-22-03 Just spent the day bumming around. Nothing special. My mommy came over and I was happy. But like always she wasn't the pleasant mom I wished she would be. And this entry will be short because my grandpa is on my ass about going to bed early because of work. It's so annoying! Okay, I know I really shouldnt take him for granted but its REALLLLLY REALLLLY hard when he is the way he is! Today he was a major pest. BUt damn, I feel so bad for snapping at him but its like he freaks out over everything! HIM: Elena have you eaten yet? ME: No. HIM: Well here's some money go get yourself a hamburger or whatever and bring me back the change. ME: No, I dont want fast foo and I'm not hungry. HIM: You're the one starving yourself girl. ME: I'm fine grandpa. HIM: Well, anyways, here's some money go get yourself a hamburger or whatever and bring me back the change. ME: Grandpa I JUST said I was fine. HIM: You don't like me anymore do you? And this is our conversations on every damn subject.It always ends with him as the victim. Imagine it. It's unnerving and sometimes I want to scream and yell and stomp around. I can't even read in my room or he thinks I'm sleeping and it gets in the way of work. Umm... It's friday night. Does he care? No. I still love him, he's my pappy. He's liek my dad. Cuz teh sperm donor is an ass. WE still havent spoken and lord knows how long it will be until we do. I seriosuly think it will be another couple months because he has a job now so he doesnt need me anymore. It sucks so much. It hurts so much. It FUCKING sucks! No one should have to feel this way. Like they've served their purpose and they wish there was another favor needed. Like a fucking puupy. What a fucking asshole and he always tries to make it look like its MY fault. Well FUCK YOU Jesus Miguel Sarabia!!! FUCK YOU FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU FATHER! That doesn't help. Nopt at a lot, not even a little bit, not even at all. And my brother is a horrible asshole, he makes my mom cry, she cant handle him. I hate him too. But he's my brother. I love him. Everything looks so fucked upw hen you think about it, when you REALLY see things. I've been hiding way too long. Living here with my grandpa has made me a hermit. I don't want to leave him, but I want to break free. I don't knwo what I'm saying anymore. Peace out. You Know You Love Me, ~JBehrsGurl << | >> MOVED - 09-08-04 test - 08-18-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Whoa Momma! - 05-24-04 Even OLDER... |