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Confused
bitched @ 10:18 a.m. on 2002-10-25 *Sits typing away wishing she knew how "screaming infidelities" sounded* Could I be anymore of an idiot? I just got back from my morning work break and he told me that he kicked it with Daniel! ARGH! I am sooo mad! Cuz I'm TRYING to get him out of my head but NOOOO Tony has to go and bring him right back in! Yea so I guess Tony thinks he's an alright guy now. He said he asked him about me... And he said that he doesn't like my friends... I should be mad, I should be pissed... But I'm NOT. Cuz the sad thing is I KNOW I need new friends. It just sucks that my BFF lives freaking a million miles away. Also Tony told me that Daniel got jumped and has a black eye. Excuse me while I laugh my fat ass off... *snickers in corner* hahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!! Oh geez! I am so gonna be punished for that! Karma sux! lol Yea so I told Tony that I was gonna be by myself thi swekend due to the fact that my grandpa will be in the hospital for around a week or two. And Tony flipped screaming "PAR-TAY!" I was like, uh... no. I mean hello? NOSY ASS NEXTDOOR NEIGHBOR ALERT! Seriously man she sticks her face in my door any chance she gets. She's very sincere tho and only looks out for the best. I guess. So anyways now Tony says he wants to some kick it with me and my friends at the house. I was like uh... no. But I guess cuz he's like my best friend ya know? My best GUY friend anyways. I've known him since our moms were both pregnant and are best friends! So needless to say we're stuck with each other. Yea so anyways now Tony wants to come and bring non other than... *drum roll please* DANIEL!!! (Jess if you are reading this... HELP!) What the hell am I going to do? I don't know whats gonna happen most likely nothing but if it does... If Tony DOES roll through with Daniel... What. The. Hell. Am. I. Gonna. Do???? I'm scared. I'm scared that what if he comes and I like him again? I'm scared that what if he comes and I like him again and he doesn't like me? I'm scared that what if he comes and for some MIRACLE things work out? I'm scared that somewhere down the line I'm either gonna screw up or he is or we both will. I'm scared that I'm blowing things way out of porpotion and I'm overanalyzing things like always. I tend to do things like this. What would Liz Parker do? Granted Daniel is no Max Evans but still! He's a quater of maybe a Michael Guerin!!! Holy cheese and freaking crackers man! Oh yea and I guess Daniel told Tony that he's 100% Italian. I won't even go into detail on what I heard about Italians... HAHA You can only imagine!!! Chica doesn't like it at my new home. She's freaked out, it makes me sad cuz well... She's my child! My poor little kitty is scared!!! She's all alone locked up in my room without me! She must be shitting bricks awaiting my arrival! Am I being to dramatic again? I am? Oh. Sorry... I'm confused as of now. I don't know how I feel about things. I know that as of now I have NOTHING with Daniel. But I'm scared about when/if I do. Most likely nothing will happen but you just never freaking know man. Sometimes I get so weird I even freak myself out! Watch me come back and tell you that NOTHING ever happen and allll this worry crap was again... FOR NOTHING!!! BBL You know you love me, ~JBehrsGurl
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