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a Dream Within a Dream
bitched @ 12:28 p.m. on 11-26-03 So here I am again, did you miss me dear �ol diary? Oh I know you did, no use lying to yourself. I feel asleep at 8pm yesterday and woke up at 12 where I read the rest of my book than fell back asleep. I had the most WONDERFUL dream last night. Man I get shivers from just THINKING about it! Okay so I know how I got the dreams. I just finished reading Fantasy Lover by Sherrilyn Kenyon, a reccomendatin from the lovely Lindsay. Anyways! I had a dream that my boyfriend was Vin Diesel but his name was like, different. I can�t remember it dammit. But yea, and I guess we were in love like, deeply cuz we were in my grandpa�s room but it wasn�t quite his room �weiiiird. There was baby talk and kisses that much I remember. So anyways, I guess it was Turkey Day and I was introducing him as my boyfriend to my family in the kitchen �which seemed to weird him out but I was so sure were would end up together. And all the women in my family were oogling him and looking back at me like, how the HELL did this happen? Sadly even in my dreams my family doesn�t believe in me. Pity. But I introduced him to my grandma and she liked him and man it�s weird cuz my grandma isn�t here anymore ya know? Man it felt good in that dream. Because of him, because of her. So anyways I�m sitting in the livingroom at the coffee table on this little ass chair on the floor and Nina is next to me on the right. I�m waiting for Vin in the kitchen, and everyone is chatting and shizzle. And I notice that my om and Tia have sat him down at the kitchen tablke and I turn around and look at him and snao my fingers and he immediately gets up and grabs a chair and comes to sit by me. Since his chair is higher than mine I lean my head on his thigh and he pets my hair and man� It was niiiiice. Anywhoot I remember my mom scolding me for snapping my fingers at him like a dog. I did do that too cuz like, when I snapped my fingers I had my hand at my side where I wanted him to sit. Haha! Anyways when he sits down and we�re settled he looks at me all surprised and happy and says something like, he�s hella shocked and honored that I�m READY and that it would be with HIM. And in my dream I�m looking at him like ready for what??? And then he looks at me and his eyes get bigger and it hits me and I�m like whoooooa nelly! Just cuz I said we were together don�t mean that and then I�m all nervous in my dream. So anyways THAN we�re at some doc in San Francisco (where I guess I live instead of here in Sacramento) and I think we were under the Golden Gate Bridge cuz it was just a feeling and then I�m looking out at the view and shizzle. His arms around around my waits (hell yea baby!) and he says he loves me. Then we�re arguing because he lives in LA and works there for some Police force academy and he wants me to go with him. So yea, needless to say I�m FRIGGIN out cuz I don�t wanna leave my grandpa or my family behind. And he�s just not having that, he wants me to go with him and he�s getting mad. So of course I start crying and look out to the peeps playing in the water (dude this whole dream was like a movie cuz the wind was all blowing my hair around �did I mention my hair was looking auflly nice too!) and then he feels bad. But I won�t let him touch me, cuz my feelings are hurt and my emotions are jumbled cuz I like him soooo much possibly love him and he�s asking me to leave the ones I�ve always loved. Plus I haven�t known him that long and it wasn�t like he asked me to marry him. Plus if I went to go live with him I�d have to give it up (which isn�t a bad thing cuz he�s hoooot, but in my dream I�m a nervous wreck about it). THEN we�re back in my grandpa�s room, still arguing and I remember my mom telling me she thinks they work for the same company and maybe he can get transferred over here. Only my grandpa�s back wall is like GONE and it�s the backyard in the room too �weiiiiird! So anyhoot I ask him and he doesn�t work for the same company and therefore I have to make a descision. Than he grabs me gentl in his arms and looks into my eyes and says he loves me and he wants me with him. What was my descision? I DON�T FRIGGIN KNOW CUZ GUESS WHO BANGS ON MY DOOR!?!?!?! Yep! Dear �ol grandpa. Man I was piiiiiiiissed!!! I tried going back to sleep but nope. It was gone, all gone. I�ll never have it back again. Man, that sucks. It was hella good while it lasted, I could feel his arms around me perfectly and feel his kisses, man it was REAL! I swear! Dammit. So yea, my grandpa is on my ass about getting up for work and it�s only 8 am. I don�t have to be in work by 10 plus if I had to be at my moms at 9:30 I still had hella time. But NOOOOOOOO he continued to be an ass and bug bug bug me!!! I get up I rush out and what happens when I get to my moms? She�s not there. I then realized that I forgot she was getting a ride from my Tia. I wanted to scream!! I wanted to call my grandpa up and yell at him for yelling at me cuz he said I was making my mom late and he made ME feel like shit cuz he was all, �Elena, I love you, you�re my granddaughter but she�s my DAUGHTER.� I have NO clue what the fuuuck he meant but I took offense. I always take offense �for everytrhing. But I�ll just go with the silent treatment. I�m gonna go cuz now I�m bored. Peeeaaaace out! Wanna read the funny ass convo me and Tony Tone had? Shhhh, don�t tell I showed you Diary! >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 10:15AM >>> u here? >>> Tony Hernandez 11/26/03 10:20AM >>> yup yup >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 10:20AM >>> coolies, how long you here for? http://www.asksnoop.com/ <-- funny shiet! >>> Tony Hernandez 11/26/03 10:26AM >>> til 1:00. i don't feel good. >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 10:27AM >>> awwwww, poor baby. you're such a poo, I gotta stay here all damn day. :P >>> Tony Hernandez 11/26/03 10:28AM >>> hahahaha, i wanna go home and go back to sleep. my mom made me come in today. >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 10:30AM >>> my grandpa made me get up hella early cuz he said I had to take my mom to work , so I hurry my ass through the house and I get there and what do I see? My mom is not there because I then remembered that my tia was taking her to work. Damn the man I call grandpa! >>> Tony Hernandez 11/26/03 10:34AM >>> hahaha, that suks.. well at least u got a early start on the day.. >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 10:36AM >>> well, I'm bored and no one is really working so when you can, you wanna sit up here in the caf and break? >>> Tony Hernandez 11/26/03 10:38AM >>> no, i can't today. i am jus here to do some work and go home. the only reason i came in today ws because i turned in my timesheet yesterday and i had to make and appearance today. >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 10:38AM >>> poohead, well anyways than amuse me when you can, by writing to me. haha! >>> Tony Hernandez 11/26/03 10:45AM >>> hahah, what u doing tomoroow? >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 10:45AM >>> just kidding, going to my tias house with my pappy and mom and shizzle, u? >>> Tony Hernandez 11/26/03 10:48AM >>> i am going to my moms house and eat.. gonnabe there all day. i hope i feel better by then tho.. how is it going up there? u like being up there better or down here? >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 10:49AM >>> dang dude how sick are you? like your tummy or wha? and I like it up here but I like the poeple down there. >>> Tony Hernandez 11/26/03 10:53AM >>> my throat is sore and my neck is all fuked up. >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 10:53AM >>> what were YOU doing last night??? haha >>> Tony Hernandez 11/26/03 10:58AM >>> nothing. i started to feel sick two days ago.. and i haven't even been partying like usual. >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 10:59AM >>> haha, that just made me laugh for some reason. but well, looks like the flu bug has finally claimed you tone dawg. >>> Tony Hernandez 11/26/03 11:03AM >>> hahah:P , , it better not be the flu. or i am gonna be hella mad.. it better jus be something that will go away in a couple of days.. >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 11:04AM >>> doubtful my friend, very doubtful. its going around, especially around here. >>> Tony Hernandez 11/26/03 11:07AM >>> forget that. well let me know who got it cuz if i get i am gonna whoop some a$$, ahahahha >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 11:08AM >>> lol, than you'll have to whoop the worlds @$$ haha >>> Tony Hernandez 11/26/03 11:17AM >>> i know. it's a tough job but somebody has to do it.. >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 11:18AM >>> hahaha, dorkus >>> Tony Hernandez 11/26/03 11:23AM >>> :p haha dorkus?? u stink >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 11:24AM >>> You smell, I can smell you allll the way up here, damn air vents! Whew! You need a shower flu boy. >>> Tony Hernandez 11/26/03 11:28AM >>> hahhaa, :p your funny!! >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 11:35AM >>> have you seen finding nemo? >>> Tony Hernandez 11/26/03 11:40AM >>> yes i have,, it is a good moving. have u seen it? >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 11:41AM >>> I own it, I watch it 24/7, haha >>> Tony Hernandez 11/26/03 11:43AM >>> oh yeah, hahaha. well it isn't that good. >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 11:44AM >>> bite your tongue flu boy, its the izzle for shizzle >>> Tony Hernandez 11/26/03 11:47AM >>> hahaha, that website was funny >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 11:47AM >>> told you >>> Tony Hernandez 11/26/03 11:50AM >>> yup yup >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 12:21PM >>> I wanna go hoooome! >>> Tony Hernandez 11/26/03 12:23PM >>> me too,. well actually i am in less then 45mins, hahaa:P >>> Elena Sarabia 11/26/03 12:24PM >>> lucky poo You Know You Love Me, ~JBehrsGurl << | >> MOVED - 09-08-04 test - 08-18-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Whoa Momma! - 05-24-04 Even OLDER... |