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My New Promise
bitched @ 8:57 a.m. on 03-01-04 Quickly I�m gonna whip up an update cuz I gotta get downstairs and start working with my girls. Yeay! I miss them and its so good to see them again. So anyways, I saw The Passion of Christ� Oh my gosh. It has changed me. Seriously, not because it was so spiritual or because I felt any vibes. But because I NEVER realized how much Jesus was tortured for us, for our existence he went through hell. I�m gonna start being a better person, I hope this new attitude stays with me and isn�t just a temporary type deal. Because I�d like to go to heaven and make god proud. I mean, I�ll never be a holy roller, I�ll never be a church attending, choir singing, bible preaching, hands up in the air singing, type person. But I�m gonna try and be closer to god and find a nice church to attend. The movie made me hysterical, seriously. I was bawling my friggin eyes out. The torture scenes were graphic and realistic. It�s like the WHOLE lashing scene is NOT even shortened, you get to watch the whole thing. I couldn�t watch it, I almost made myself sick I was crying so much. I wanted to leave the theatre, I almost did. But I was like, no. Watch this, this is what he went through just so you could live your life here on earth. Man, and after the movie was over my mom had to calm my ass down. I was just letting it allll out. I think the last time I cried that hard was at my grandpas brothers funeral, and sadly that was just because it reminded me of my grandma�s funeral. Bottom line, I cried REALLY hard, the people behind us were even concerned and that embarrassed me so I sucked it up and waited until we got to the car to let the rest out. My mom kept trying to make jokes about when I was little and cried this hard for The Little Mermaid. I was so not laughing, it wasn�t funny at all. I wanted to smack her. On a different note, I�ve decided that it�s good I�m still a virgin. I�m gonna save myself for Marriage. Yup, ya�ll heard me right. I�m savin� this cherry for when I marry. This is one commandment that I will not break. Because I�ve broken enough of them, out of 10 I�ve broken 7, that is bad! BAD! B.A.D.! Man I really need to pray for forgiveness. My brother is still a brat. Nina is too, but still love her. Ummm, my mom is annoying and so is my grandpa. My cat is sick, she has poop all over her but and I had to take her a bath and wash the shit and vomit all off of her. If that isn�t love, I don�t know what is. I�ve started a new story, this is the one I�m gonna publish. This is THE ONE. Seriously. I started it last night and it just feels right. I feel I have to hurry because this idea might surface in the publishing business before I can get it to an editor. I hope I�m the first one. I pray. I just hope I�m able to get this one out there for everyone to read. I really do have a good feeling about this one. I wish I could tell you the plot and all but I�m SO nervous about it getting out before I finish to even say what it is. All I can say is that I�m VERY excited and I hope that all my expectations for it come true. Wow, I�m so nervous about this story, but at the same time I�m excited to write it. Alright. I have to end things here. But I shall return and fill your minds with endless wonderment as always. You know I�d never let you down there! Haha! Also, I�m gonna �suck it up and talk to Mark� like Blondie told me too. Really, I am. We get our tests back today. I�m so damn nercous about that. What if I ask him to come sit by me and I get my test back and he see�s that I failed?! What if he does better than me?! I CAN�T TAKE THE PRESSURE!!! AHHHH!!!! One thing is for sure� He better not get a better grade than me. You Know You Love Me, ~JBehrsGurl P.S. Forgot to mention my new CD's!! I got: Lostprophets, Story Of The Year, Alicia Keys & All American Rejects. I'm a happy gal. I'm waiting for my check so I can get: A.F.I., Switchfoot, and more... haha! << | >> MOVED - 09-08-04 test - 08-18-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Whoa Momma! - 05-24-04 Even OLDER... |