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bitched @ 2:50 p.m. on 11-14-03 It�s raining outside. Big whoop right? Right. I don�t know what I feel right now. I feel, I dunno� Empty. Like there�s something missing. I don�t really know what is missing. I have everything that�s important right now. A roof over my head, my family, a car, a job� I�m not poor, I�m not depressed, I�m just� Bored? I was thinking for a moment that maybe I need a boyfriend. But I�ve gotten this far without one so I guess I can go on a little longer. My crushes last about 5 minutes anyways so there�s no one I could advance upon anyways. Last night I was changing into my jimmies and I looked in the mirror and OH.MY.GOD. I am FAT!!! No joke, no lie, no nothing. I went from a size 0 to a size 14. Holy god! Somebody call an exorcist cuz there is NO way this can be me. I don�t GET fat! NEVER! EVER! Elena is not a fat prone person! But yet here I am, blubber and all. I�m FAT. It�s nice to hear people say �Oh my gosh you are not fat!� I used to believe them� But not anymore. I AM fat, there�s no denying it, I�m getting so pudgy, I�m getting fat. It started with my ass, than my hips, than I grew love handles, my face got fatter and now� I have a huge gut. I used to be able to say that I had to wear big pants because of my ass and hips but now its because of that AND this tub of lard between! I also spent the only free cash I had today at Amazon. Damn them and their books! But at least I got hella kick ass books! Lindz will be happy to soon have a Dark Hunter fan. Haha! Here�s what happen when I realized what I did� KeepaoftheCheez: so which ones are you getting? so i can make sure youre doing it right, lol AvaliciousFaith: omg i just spent 51.94 bucks AvaliciousFaith: haha AvaliciousFaith: Fantasy Lover, Night Pleasures, and AvaliciousFaith: Night Embrace KeepaoftheCheez: okay thats right KeepaoftheCheez: WHOA! what all did you get?? KeepaoftheCheez: lol!! AvaliciousFaith: and The A-List, and Shadow Game and Laurell K. Hamilton Set - Guilty Pleasures, The Laughing Corpse, Circus of the Damned and The Lunatic Cafe AvaliciousFaith: hahaha KeepaoftheCheez: dayum! KeepaoftheCheez: lol, no worries i do that shit too AvaliciousFaith: i ALWAYS do that And see? This is where I mess up everytime. At Amazon. Damn conniving fuckers. I am so tired I want to go home NOW! But I still got 2 and a half hours to go. I can do this. I know I can. I can right? Yes. Yes I can. Gah! Its just so hard! Hw do you make yourself stay awak when you�re dead tired? And I mean tiiiiiired!? I leave you with a funny ass song I heard last night while watching �The Sweetest Thing,� Ready? I know you are you nosy bunch of bitches. You Know You Love Me, ~JBehrsGurl << | >> MOVED - 09-08-04 test - 08-18-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Hola El Stupido - 06-09-04 Whoa Momma! - 05-24-04 Even OLDER... |